Last night was, how should i say this, interesting? I don't even know how my conversation with her turned out to be like that. Now I know what it feels like to be turned down with no chance at all. In the past few days, even though she rejected me, I thought I at least have somewhat of a chance with her. But last night just made me feel "What the Fuck. Let's call her "M"
On Thursday, me, her , and two other friends went out to eat after school. That day was really fun and all of us laughed really hard. Now the awkward part came. Our two other friends still wanted to hang out and told us they wanted to go to school. "M" wanted to go home and I felt bad that she was going alone, so I went to the bus stop with her. Those 6 minutes were really awkward. It was so quiet and it felt like we don't know each other that well. It felt like we never had those awesome conversations on the phone. I don't get it. When on the phone, we talk for about 3 hours. Then when we meet in person, we don't get to go in conversation that much.
The phone call with "M" made me realize how dumb I am. She told me what I did wrong and how my confession was OFF-TIMING. She started to say all those things which, of course hurt me, but I needed to hear this from her. She told me that I really don't have any chance with her. She was finally being straight up with me. OK I'm really dumb. She told me how when we first met, I would joke around with her that we're boyfriend and girlfriend and that she would play along. This was going on for about a month or so. Then I started to feel something for her. I did this because I thought that she would just be a buddy, but i guessed wrong.
Knowing now the whole story, I don't have anything to look forward to when it comes to going to school. We're still best buddies but mehh, whatever.
BTW SPRING BREAKKKKK. STREET FIGHTER MODE
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