*ring ring* *ring ring* *ring ring*
The sound coming from my cellphone took me back to reality. I checked who was calling and saw the name “Aoi”. Looking at this name gave me distinctive feelings. I felt happy, excited, and hopeful. But I also felt depressed, discouraged, and pained.

“Hello”
“Nobu! I’m waiting outside! Hurry and come out, it’s cold and you’re leaving me here all alone at night!”
“I’ll be right there~!

I hurried to the door and put on my shoes. I looked at the mirror and fixed up my hair a little bit. I heaved a big sigh and whispered to myself “…I can do it”. I opened the door and saw a girl that made my heart beat like I was running an endless road. Her smile was godlike, making me catch my breath every time I see it. Her bangs which were parted to the side, gave her a sense of simplicity and beauty.

“Hey Aoi!”, forcing myself to smile. She looked at me and said nothing. She looked down and gave me a hug. The side of her face was pushed against my chest and I held her. She looked back up to me and her eyes told me the whole story of what she was feeling. There was a hint of regret and sadness overwhelming her.

Honestly, I didn’t know what to say. We started walking to her place with a few random conversations. But most of the time, it was pure silence. You see, she was leaving tonight. She was going somewhere far away, a place that I can’t even reach. After 30 minutes of walking, we stopped by her house. I stared at her eyes and she stared at mine. It was gut wrenching. I opened my mouth and what came out was…”I hope you take care of yourself…” She smiled but there was a sight of disappointment on her face. She gave me a hug without saying anything and went back to her house.

I walked in the night alone. Tears started to run down my face. I can’t let it end like this. My body was moving on its own, never stopping to run back. I can’t end it like this. Flashbacks started to emerge. I can’t end it like this. I was so close to her. I can’t end it like this. The first time we met, we ate out, the sunset we saw together, the shooting star we both wished on, and the moon we both gazed upon. I can’t end it like this. Why are things never working out? Why can’t we just be together? Why does she have to move? These questions were in my head. I paused. As the cold wind was breezing through my hair, I clenched my fists.

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I started running. I ran and ran as hard as I can, tears streaming down my face. What was I doing? I started to worry. I was worried that I won’t be able to see her again. I was worried I won’t be able to say my true feelings. The feeling of regret enveloped my body and now I was running for my life. Turn left, go straight, turn right, and go straight. The path reminded me of my life with her. We both didn’t know where we were going and what turn will bring us. But you know, I’m glad it was with her. My legs started to hurt as I ran up the hill. I started to run faster ignoring the physical pain because I was trying to prevent another pain, the pain in my heart.

“Nobu?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m leaving tomorrow…”
“I know that Aoi, what you’d think? I’d forget?”
“No…” Tears ran down her face.
I hugged her. She kissed me on the cheek.
“I wish it was like this forever, Nobu.”
“Shhh…it’s okay Aoi. Don’t cry anymore.”


I saw her house out in the distance. I ran and ran. The house still remained in the distance. The more I ran, the farther the distance has become. All of a sudden, the face of her smiling popped inside my head. Her smile, her innocence, everything about her makes me want to stay by her side forever. I stopped with my head down. Panting, I looked up and saw something that I will remember for the rest of my life. The problem was that “something” is nothing. Her car was gone and the lights were off. I walked to her front door and rang the doorbell. I rang it again. No answer. I rang it again. No answer. I rang it again. No answer. I pressed the door bell repeatedly with tears flowing.

The sunlight got into my eyes.